Me and Little E. We are growing. I've been feeling lots more fluttery kicks in the past few days and I'm loving every single one. It's such a sweet reminder from baby that, "Hey! I'm in here!" and an even sweeter reminder from the Lord that He's growing this baby without any of my help. I think the fact that this baby was a surprise has really helped me to just let go and enjoy the ride. I surely didn't know I'd be wearing maternity scrubs at my first job, or receiving a diaper bag for graduation, or reading about cloth diapering on blogs while I should be studying for the NCLEX... but I'm thankful God knew. And I'm so thankful for this new and unexpected life.
If you've been following the blog for long, you may remember that last summer I was accepted into an accelerated BSN program that allowed me to graduate in May 2012. When I started nursing school, though, I was scheduled to graduate in December 2012. I spent an agonizing weekend worrying and praying and mostly worrying about whether I'd be accepted into the accelerated program and be able to graduate 7 months early. Little did I know... and how the Lord did know... that the December graduation just wouldn't have been an option. He knew there was a baby that would need taking care of, and I surely couldn't have popped out a baby and graduated 6 or 8 weeks later. His ways are so much higher than ours.
I've been so thankful for this very uneventful pregnancy. Today, about 5 of my coworkers asked sympathetically, "How are you feeling?" which was so sweet, and I could honestly say, "I feel great!" I literally have no pregnancy symptoms other than this growing belly, and I know that's nothing to take for granted. I definitely didn't expect to be this big this early, but my midwife says it's just how my body was made - smaller frame, short torso, long legs... nowhere else for baby to go. I'm just glad to be out of the I-look-like-I-ate-a-huge-meal phase and into the phase where people know there must be a baby in there.
Keep growing, Little E. We can't wait to meet you.